jacob’s ladder

I feel like a Jacob’s Ladder:
Sticks and ribbons
And empty air.
My hip is dislocated
And I find heaven here.

the communing

This is communion

This is the wine of a candlelit dinner
This is the bread that satisfies our hunger
This is the blood and this is the flesh
And this is life superseding death

Yes, this is communion
And the beauty is this:
Every bite is surrender
And each sip is a kiss.

This poem was first featured on my blog which creatively follows my adventures in India: Blue Chunni

parasite

You are a parasite
You’re making me
Emaciated
Draining me
Drinking me up
In one surreptitious sip
I can
Feel all my bones
I can
Breath only thinly
For my lungs also are shriveling up
And I have nothing left in me

I feel tiny

grace

Grace
patiently
untangles me,
takes the noose
and lovingly
unstrangles me

breathes into my lungs,
uncovers me,
washes my wounds with saltwater,
and dresses me

softly sings
until I fall asleep
and then – sweet grace –
becomes even my dream

strong tower; weak self

Your Name is a strong tower
Even when
My voice is too scathed too utter it
And I’m too weak to run in.

This is it

This is what I sound like
When my bones have broken
This is what I look like
When I’ve just awoken
And this is what I smell like
When I’m drenched in fear
And this is what I feel like
When I die here.

Akshov

It’s almost ninety degrees, yet
What once felt so warm feels
So cold now
And as I hide under the covers
I – who used to feel adult –
Feel like a child now
Because
The taste of every thought of you
So sweet before
Floods me in your absence

And I’m choking now

Like

You ‘like’ the expression of my hurt
Maybe because you’ve hurt like that too
Maybe something in my humanity is something like you.

Hm…

I like that.

A heart for a heart

An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth.
When I yanked out your heart
It yanked mine out too.

Now we’re both dead.

“I just wish you knew…”

I just wish you knew
How this is killing me
How I raw I feel
How indescribably empty
My stomach and lungs and limbs feel
How each bone
Breaks inside me